Talyn-chan

I know I rarely post anything so I thought I'd post something up for my friends who are here. For those who don't know I'm a college student, but I don't know how long I'll be one at this rate. I think my mom might be about to cut me off and I'm not sure what to do. It's nearly impossible to find a job where i'm at, and even if I did, I don't know if I could afford college on my own. All my financial aide is through my mom, so if she cuts me off I'm pretty much screwed.

I love how this has just kinda become a place for me to rant now... I'm really just getting sick of my aunt/mother. One moment she's really nice and cool and the next she's destroying every inch of my self-esteem and pride. I'm also sick of her forcing me to go to church, I'm fucking 18. I can fucking decide whether or not I want to go to church. I like my church and all, I just don't really have anyone there anymore. I feel so left out and like I don't really belong there anymore and yet my mother continues to try and force me to go. I mean, I don't even know if I really believe in God anymore, and here she is trying to make me go hear abou

I just feel like I'm falling apart lately. I don't know what's up, but every little thing sets me off. I can barely sleep anymore and I just want to cry over everything. My 'mom' isn't exactly helping either. I feel like she doesn't even want me around anymore, like I'm just a nuisance to her. I called her and asked for a ride home for break and she got really mad at me, and I was hoping for a ride so I could bring everything I think I'll need home. I almost feel like everyone BUT her wants me to come home and wants to see me over the break. I really am just ready to break down and have a massive anxiety attack and just loose it, cause I have